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240027855111609098_lPl7TKxO_bTell me a story. A story of love with no end in sight. Tell me how you overcome the backward, unexplainable actions. Tell me how you fall in love and stay there. Tell me.

This is no ordinary love story and really it isn’t my love story to tell, but then again if I don’t tell it who will?

Think about everything you could put a relationship through, every test, every heartbreak and image you still get your happy ending. There were times of silence, times when nothing seemed like they would ever work out again. There were times when everyone gave up and walked away.

How do you overcome that? How do you learn to trust the other person again? I don’t know how personally, but I have seen it. I have seen a relationship put through unimaginalbe things, things that would doom it to fail. You know what though? God brought them back together exactly when the worst things imaginable were happening. He has a funny way of doing that, never early, never late, but always perfect timing.

He brought them back together and then the whole world FLIPPED upside down. We have one in the hospital because of a mystery mass on their brain, the other with two parents on the verge of reaching the other side, and they have each other again. Perfect timing, but more miracles were on the way.

The mass turned out to be an infection, not a tumor or cancer. The parents died within such a short time of  each other they had a joint funeral. The medicine that would keep the one from going to the funeral were cut off on CHRISTMAS DAY and in perfect timing they were both able to go to the funeral.

God sure is great.

Now, you would think, “okay they’ve had enough, time for a break?” No, God isn’t done yet. Two more parents health failing, Alzheimer’s stealing one before they are actually gone, the other so weak any misstep could be the call we all dread. There is a silver lining though and it comes in the form of a promise. A promise that they will never let go of each other. The missteps of the past are exactly that and have been left where they should.

We aren’t meant to understand, we are meant to trust.

Today I am smiling for their love, for my love for them, and for their love for me.

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Hebrews 13:5When I was younger I took the popular saying, “everything happens for a reason,” and changed it. I changed it to, “everything happens for a reason, that’s what we tell ourselves to make us feel better in bad situations.” I clearly did not believe the saying.

What I didn’t get then is that by me saying that I was challenging what I claimed to believe in. God says in Romans 8:28, “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”

It took me a long time and a lot of mistakes to finally understand it all. See I could have saved myself from a few things that have really hurt me in my adult life, but I didn’t see the whole picture then. And even if I could have seen the whole picture there are still so many things out of my control. Nothing will change that my mom had brain surgery and that my grandparents continually slip into the vast emptiness that is Alzheimer. It would be easy for me to get angry and frustrated for so many trials coming at one time, but God knows me far too well.

He knew what it would take to kick me into living the life He had planned for me because as long as I felt safe, I wasn’t going to move. It took this kick to follow Him into the unknown. MercyMe has a song called Move:

I’m not about to give up
Because I heard you say
There’s gonna be brighter days
There’s gonna be brighter days

I won’t stop, Ill keep my head up
No, I’m not here to stay
There’s gonna be brighter days
There’s gonna be brighter days

I just might bend but wont break
As long as I can see your face

When life wont play along
And right keeps going wrong
And I cant seem to find my way
I know where I am found
So I wont let it drag me down
Oh, I’ll keep dancing anyway

I’m gonna move (move)

I took a leap of faith with God and there are brighter days and everything does happen for a reason. We just have to take a moment to breathe and see that even when the world is seemingly falling all around you there is hope. Not only is there hope, but there is love and even when you feel as if the whole world has left you and there is nothing, there is God. Sometimes we are too stubborn for our own good and God knows exactly what to do to make you move.

Trust Him when everything is falling because it just means great things are awaiting you. It just means you had to learn this lesson to get to where you are supposed to be.

If we stop and think about every time we didn’t think we would make it what we would really see are the moments that made us. They didn’t break us.

Smile and keep dancing.